Where do I start? My baby is no longer an infant. I have a toddler. I’m not sure where the time went or how my little girls feet now pass and outgrow her carrier. In the blink of an eye she started to crawl and stand up and has her own little personality with looks combined. Where did the year go?
I can’t help but ask myself if I spent the first year of her life correctly. Was I best mom I could be? Did I make enough memories with her? Did I capture enough pictures? I can’t help but think I will never get these moments back. She will never be that little tiny baby again. And while I’m sitting here holding back the tears so I can type, I hold her and it’s unexplainable the feelings I have. I couldn’t even begin to put into words what is going through my heart and making my stomach in knots right now. I know in the grand scheme of things a year might not seem like much time but this past year is indescribable. I learned so much about my daughter, my husband, our son, and especially myself. I doubted myself that I would be a good mom. And while I still feel like I’m screwing things up some days, I feel like I got this.
It’s a hard thing, to be a mom. To watch your children grow up and be sad about it but to also be happy for everything they have done and everything they will do. No one really tells you about this part of parenting. The gut wrenching, heart stopping, knots in your throat feelings of emotion you will feel towards your babies. 💕
Oh, the places you’ll go!
Happy Birthday Baby Girl!